To Be loved - saraie knox

I so intently observe those i care for and those i desire,

watching and listening closely for fear of ever missing something.

The “teensiest” detail, the smallest tidbit of information,

I want to know your soul.

I want to know everything,

so I may give you my all & more.

So I observe,

I watch and i listen,

For fear of getting caught slacking,

for fear of slipping up.

My memory can get so shaky at times, and i get scared that if I blink,

I’ll miss my chance to see you,

to memorize every detail of you,

to soak you in.

So i observe,

I watch and I listen,

for fear of ever making you feel

how I feel.

Waiting as patiently as I know how,

desperately clinging to my faith in the universe.

Waiting for someone to see me,

waiting for someone to hear me.

To know my soul,

& give me their all.

My biggest breakthrough came

when I realized

I’ve been looking for myself

in everyone else.