Losing All Care - Jelisa Gonzalez

I interlock hands 

with a skimpy bitch 

that did my friend dirty,

Is this networking?

I hear from someone

that they’ve seen me 

around campus.

A real mind fuck 

if you ask me.

Their other friend

comes up to me

and I sense a motion 

of pitied conversation

because they ask me how I am

and intrinsically I know 

its a courtesy and not 

a care.

I noticed that people will

never reciprocate the energy I give them

no matter the circumstance 

and that fact makes me 

resentful and 

bitter. 

How dare you not care for me as I do you? 

That’s the thing with the 

idea of care,

I take notice 

I retaliate with my silence 

or so i believe,

because no matter what I do 

or don’t,

Someone will always have something to say.

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Jelisa Gonzalez is a current English Major in the BA/MA program at UAlbany. She has previously been published in the past two editions of ARCH. She loves the community of creative writers that ARCH brings together and allows the space to be free in their process. In her spare time she loves to read, listen to music, and spend time with her friends.